Day 6: May 20, 2007. Northern British Columbia to Prince George, BC (776 miles)
Four summers ago, I drove up to Alaska with my friend Paul in my dad’s Saturn SUV.
I remember how nervous we were when we slept behind an abandoned motel in Great Falls, Montana and how frightened we were of bears on our hike up a mountain-trail in Yellowstone. The drive was, for me, The Journey of all Journeys. It was an adventure. I still think back on the trip nostalgically, but I deem it about as “adventurous” as my weekly walk to the laundromat.
Adventure evolves. What was once adventurous may—with repetition—become mundane. The professional skydiver who daily tumbles into the air is as much an adventurer as the secretary who daily reorders her filing cabinet. Inversely, the agoraphobe’s walk across the street could be just as intrepid as an astronaut’s first leap across a lonely planet.
Adventure is the exploration of the unknown. The experienced hiker/climber/traveler, what have you, may very well experience adventurous moments, but he is no adventurer. The naïf, rather, must relentlessly conjure courage and conquer fears. The climbing guide or common seafarer function as machines, reading the manual of routine that repetition has imprinted in their heads. The naïf explores his self as much as he does the land around him. It is he who in bounding over unexplored terrain, reshapes the contours of his mind.
I had come up to Coldfoot in the summer of 2005 to immerse myself—a lifelong suburbanite—in the unknown: a landscape of barren tundra valleys, irascible black bears, and raging rivers. And I got just that.
I came back the next year because I craved Alaska once again. I wanted to experience all those same sensations anew. But it wasn’t the same. Nor was it the following year. Or the year after that. It couldn’t have been. What was once unknown was known.
The hitchhike was my excursion beyond the borders of my little kingdom into the unknown. And across North America I hoped to stretch the boundaries of my fears and inhibitions with me as I traveled further and further away from the person I left behind in Alaska.
But I wasn’t thinking about any of these things at the time. I didn’t understand why I wanted to go. I just wanted to travel and to do so in a way that would do justice to the idea of “travel.”
Why was I cursed with this burning restlessness? Part of me wondered why I didn’t desire a home, wife, and children. Was I merely suffering from first-world desuetude? Or was I simply trying to jar some much-needed drama into my life? Or had I simply been reading too many Jack London novels? Or was there something more?
We are a mobile people. Even the most stationary in body daily embark on voyages of the mind. Might this itch, this burning restlessness, be the cause of the great human migration? Perhaps we move not to sate hungers and claim territories, but to quench curiosities.
Is it not this curiosity—so uniquely human—that drives men to climb the highest peaks, to survey the wide expanse of lonely oceans, and to someday step foot on distant planets? Oh, how grand it was to live according to these ancient rhythms; to finally heed to a call that I had muffled for far too long.
I was a traveler. But I was no adventurer. At least in comparison to some of my adventuring forebears, I was no adventurer. The adventurer has his mind so fixed on his prize that he is willing to forfeit his life to attain it. That’s because his dream is more precious than his life. Could it be that it is this hellbent resolve that has populated the distant islands of the Pacific, put men atop prodigious, cloud-covered peaks, and sent the European explorer sailing along an arc of endless ocean?
This wasn’t me. I had parents and friends that I could rely on. I even brought my credit card just in case I had to fly home. Yet, I secretly wished to have my name mentioned amongst adventurers like Shakleton and Cook, Hilary and Heyerdahl. I wished to cease my muddling around in this world and dedicate my life to some high purpose or goal that would give it clear meaning.
But I couldn’t. My ties to family also functioned as chains. Not willing to sever these ties and crush the hearts of those who raised and love me, I will forever remain bound by my social obligations.
The true adventurer is a paradox. He is self-centered, yet sacrificial. Living for others is eclipsed by his need to live for himself, yet his very life comes secondary to the fulfillment of his dream.
Sometimes when I’m in one of my more solemn tempers—when I dream of grandeur—I still fantasize about cutting myself off from everything and everyone, making one final and grand gesture to assert my absolute independence from the ties that bind.
But alas, I never do.
Riding with Dennis—a trucker—was no adventure. It was a calm two-day drive through some evermore glorious Canadian scenery. On the Cassiar Highway I glazed over grey peaks and spotted nearly 20 black bears.
Dennis was a big, lumbering, plain-faced man who you might find at the local Tim Hortons with a donut and coffee in hand at a table reading the paper. Most of the ride was spent in silence, listening to NPR on the radio, and occasionally talking about family. We stopped for coffee and soup.
On the Yellowhead Highway heading to Prince George, also nicknamed the “Highway of Tears,” a number of female hitchhikers have been abducted, raped, and killed. At coffee shops along the way, stickers on registers warned girls about the risks of hitchhiking. This was the dark side of hitchhiking and, unfortunately, stories like these attach a stigma to what should be a more practiced art of travel.
Dennis had a simple, fatherly demeanor. He wouldn’t reveal intimate details about his wife or her pubic hair and I didn’t think to ask or wish to know. He was quiet and reserved, and that was fine by me.
Dennis got drowsy an hour from his home in Prince George, so he pulled over and I set up camp next to his truck for the night. In the morning, I’d buy him breakfast, and we’d part ways.
While my day with Dennis doesn’t merit so much discussion on adventure, I was still undoubtedly on one. Ahead of me was the border of two great nations, my worrisome girlfriend in Oregon, and rides with people I wouldn’t dare associate with in ordinary life.
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